Just be happy for me

I love being engaged. There is something so great, so exciting, about looking at the person your going to marry and knowing you are going to spend the rest of your life with that person. It fills me with a sense of joy and happiness I have never experienced before.

Last night Phil and I did nothing but have dinner and just hang out for hours, and it was the most fun I have had in a long time. There was nothing real exciting about it, nothing spectacular happened. It was just he and I, spending time together as a couple, laughing and talking. At one point this kid came up asking to use one of our cell phones, and he asked Phil if I was his wife and he said yes, and looked at me and winked. It felt good, it felt right.

A few of my online friends lately have been telling me that this is all happening too fast. That I am being too impulsive, that I can't possibly be feeling what I am feeling. That something must be wrong with the both of us to want to jump into a marriage so quickly. But they don't know us, the chemistry and the dynamic between us. They can't possibly understand the feelings we have, and how when you meet the right person, something just clicks and you just know, they are the one.

I wish that people could just be happy for me, for us, instead of passing judgement on every turn. Maybe we are being impulsive, but maybe it's because we've been out there, we've dated every type of person, we've been through hell and back, and we know what we want and need from a partner. And we've found it in each other. I can honestly say there is nothing that would make me want to go back to dating again. What I have been looking for, resides in Phil, and when I look at him, I see my future. I know people don't understand that. But you don't have to understand, just be happy for us. I am tired of hearing about how I've had a bad track record when it comes to relationships. So what! That's in the past, I have learned from it, and I have moved on. Everything that happened in my past, is just that, the past. It will stay with me, it has made me who I am today, but I don't live my life based on the mistakes and unfortunate circumstances I have been in.

I've been dealt a hard hand in life. From a young age I have dealt with a debilitating disease that has kept me from doing many things I wanted to do. But I have never let it stop me. I've had fallings out with members of my family, I have lost the ability to walk, and I have been dicked around by men. And the whole time, I have kept up a positive attitude, or tried to. And all around me, my friends and acquaintances were getting married and starting their families, and building a home. And finally, its my turn. My turn to have what I have always wanted, which is a family with a wonderful and amazing man. All I ask is that people just be happy for us. If you can't be happy for us, then please, don't bother saying anything at all. I refuse to let other people's negative comments ruin what is the happiest time of my life.