My first night alone...

In two months, that is....

Tomorrow is Phil's 29th birthday, and his brother invited him up to Lake Pleasant to go fishing overnight. How anyone can sit on a boat in the middle of the night and fish is beyond me, but he loves it, and since I love him, I told him to go and have a good time. Funny thing is, in the two months we have been living together, we have spent every night together, no matter what. So as much as I am going to enjoy having the entire bed to myself (although I love him, he is a bed hog), I am missing snuggling up together in bed watching TV and making each other laugh, and yes, I am even going to miss him hogging the bed. I guess we've gotten into a routine, we have dinner, watch TV together, go to bed. Tonight though, I find myself back where I was before he moved in, alone in bed, watching TV with my trusty laptop on my lap, bored. Amazing how one person can just come into your life and turn it upside down and change it for the better. I miss him terribly, and I know I am going to have a hard time sleeping without him next to me, but it will all be worth it in the morning when he comes home and we can celebrate his birthday in style.

We did start packing some this morning before he left. It was strange, though, packing up my things. I sort of always have the idea that I was going to be here forever, that I was never going to find the person I was meant to spend the rest of my life with. I never really thought that one day I would be moving out on my own. But the day has come and as much as I am looking forward to it and I am excited, I am also feelings a little sad, and nervous. Sad to be leaving the home I know, and moving to a home of my own, where I am in charge of everything for the first time in a long time. And nervous, hoping I do well on my own. But this is good, for us to have a place of our own, and to start our life together, just he and I.

Well, I think its time for me to put away this laptop and relax here in bed, maybe watch a movie or two that I have on the Tivo that Phil doesn't want to watch with me. I suppose it is good for us to have some time away from each other, doing our own thing, but I am hoping that morning comes soon.