Sick Day

The monsoon's are in full swing here, meaning we've been getting rain and the dew point and humidity have been way up there. For me, this means my arthritis has not been a very happy camper, and today it has decided that I needed to stop and take a rest. I am really cold and my temp. is up, meaning I am having a flare up, so before it got too bad, I took a bunch of Advil, got in my warm jammies, and am now curled up in bed. I am hoping by resting today, I can avoid a full blown flare up, where I can't move at all, and get past this and start feeling better by this weekend, since we have a lot of things to do, including looking and hopefully leasing that new apartment.

I feel like such a bum though. I have laundry to do that I couldn't get done, except for a tiny load so Phil had some clean pants to wear to work tomorrow. But I can't even get them out of the washer to dry them, he will have to do it when he gets home. He has never seen me have a flare up like this, so I guess today he is going to see first hand just what I go through. I know he will help me though, he's a good guy and he understands I have trouble like this which is out of my control. I just hate feeling this way, and wish I had something stronger I could take to get me past this and back to feeling better again. I suppose there is also another part of me that worries that this all might be too much for him, that he'll start thinking he doesn't want to deal with loading my chair in and out of the car every time we go out, and deal with me having days like this, and one day tell me he just can't do it. But he has assured me time and time again that will never happens, he knows this is just part of being with me, and he is fine with it. I guess its just my own insecurities, after being in relationships in the past where I have been told my arthritis is a burden. No matter how much things are different this time, I still have those thoughts in my head, which I guess is normal.

Well, I think I am going to sit back here on my pillows and watch a little TV while I try to relax. Phil will be home very soon, and I know he will make me feel better.