Almost ready to move!

Its been a few days since I last blogged, but I have just been so busy packing and getting ready to move this weekend. Most of my bedroom is now packed up, and yesterday my mom went through her kitchen and gave me a ton of stuff that she hasn't used forever, so she was very happy to give it to me, and I was very willing to take it, seeing as I am starting out with practically nothing. So all the kitchen stuff and dishes got packed up today. Tomorrow I will do a final go through of the house, seeing if I have anything left that I haven't packed, and get a box together for loose odds and ends.

For Saturday I was able to get my friend Cindy's two oldest boys to help Phil with moving furniture and boxes, which will make the day go a lot smoother. We first have to go sign the lease and get the keys. I have the electricity being turned on as of tomorrow, and Sunday afternoon the cable guy is coming to set up the cable, phone, and Internet, meaning unless I can pick up a wireless signal from a neighboring apartment, I won't have Internet until Sunday afternoon. So you know I will be going crazy, and as soon as the cable guy leaves and I get the modem set up, I will be up and running, ready to blog about our moving adventures.

So I am very excited about moving, even though it will be sad. But I found that last week, as sad as I was about leaving, I have come to terms with me and it is going to be such a great change for me, and it really is about time for me to be get out on my own, and for Phil and I to start our life together in our own place. So wish me luck with the move, and I will be back here on Sunday!

My first night alone...

In two months, that is....

Tomorrow is Phil's 29th birthday, and his brother invited him up to Lake Pleasant to go fishing overnight. How anyone can sit on a boat in the middle of the night and fish is beyond me, but he loves it, and since I love him, I told him to go and have a good time. Funny thing is, in the two months we have been living together, we have spent every night together, no matter what. So as much as I am going to enjoy having the entire bed to myself (although I love him, he is a bed hog), I am missing snuggling up together in bed watching TV and making each other laugh, and yes, I am even going to miss him hogging the bed. I guess we've gotten into a routine, we have dinner, watch TV together, go to bed. Tonight though, I find myself back where I was before he moved in, alone in bed, watching TV with my trusty laptop on my lap, bored. Amazing how one person can just come into your life and turn it upside down and change it for the better. I miss him terribly, and I know I am going to have a hard time sleeping without him next to me, but it will all be worth it in the morning when he comes home and we can celebrate his birthday in style.

We did start packing some this morning before he left. It was strange, though, packing up my things. I sort of always have the idea that I was going to be here forever, that I was never going to find the person I was meant to spend the rest of my life with. I never really thought that one day I would be moving out on my own. But the day has come and as much as I am looking forward to it and I am excited, I am also feelings a little sad, and nervous. Sad to be leaving the home I know, and moving to a home of my own, where I am in charge of everything for the first time in a long time. And nervous, hoping I do well on my own. But this is good, for us to have a place of our own, and to start our life together, just he and I.

Well, I think its time for me to put away this laptop and relax here in bed, maybe watch a movie or two that I have on the Tivo that Phil doesn't want to watch with me. I suppose it is good for us to have some time away from each other, doing our own thing, but I am hoping that morning comes soon.

Yucky Saturday

My fibromyalgia has been acting up the past couple days, and as much as I hoped I would feel better today, when I woke up I knew I was no good to go out. Unfortunately, Phil and I had errands to run today, and I knew he really wanted me to go, and I even got myself dressed and put on makeup, but I just couldn't conjure up the energy and we knew that if I pushed myself and went out today, tomorrow I would feel even worse. So as much as I would love being out and about today, after Phil left I got back in my jammies, got into bed and decided to rest up so that tomorrow I will feel better and we can go out. Plus, he said he wants to take me on a date this weekend, so I want to feel better so we can do that tomorrow. We usually just run out to do grocery shopping and whatnot, so it will be nice to do something different.

So while I sit here and rest, I decided why not have a little fun, and do a blog survey...have a great weekend!

101. My name is: Kim

100. I was born in: Fullerton, CA

99. I am really: Sore and sicky feeling

98. My cell phone company is: Sprint

97. My eye color is: Brown

96. My shoe size is: Depending on the shoe, either a 9 or 10

95. My ring size is: 7

94. My height is: 5'5

93. I am allergic to: Codeine and the purple flowers blooming around the neighborhood

92. I was born: 28 yrs ago

91. I am annoyed by: My fibromyalgia acting up

90. Last book you read: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

89. My bed is: Very comfy, but seeing as Phil is a bed hog, we are going to have to get a king size bed lol

88: One thing you hate about yourself: My arthritis

87. My favorite Holiday is: Christmas

86. The perfect kiss: Was the first kiss I ever shared with Phil, on our first date

85. The last three cd's I bought were: Its been awhile, I always just download music and make my own cds

84. Are you living at home: I am right now, but we just got approved for our apartment, so we will be moving on Sept. 1st

83. Do you have any siblings: No, I am an only child

82. Are your parents divorced: Yes, and remarried to other people

81. What did you do yesterday: Took a shower, straightened up things around here, watched a movie, made dinner, and then snuggled with Phil in bed and watched tv until bedtime

:::I Believe In:::
80. Love at first sight: I believe there is lust at first sight

79. Luck: At times

78. Fate: Yes, but I believe God has a lot to do with it

77. Yourself: Most of the time

76. Aliens: Bring me to the mothership lol

75. Heaven: Most definitely

74. Hell: Yes

73. Ghosts: Yup, I've had a few encounters

72. Horoscopes: They are fun to read, but I don't actually believe them

71. Soulmates: Yes, and I found mine

:::Which is Better:::
70. Hugs or Kisses: Both!

69. Drunk or High: I have never been drunk or high

68. Phone or Online: Online

67. Red heads or Black haired: Well, seeing as I am a red head...:)

66. Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes

65. Hot or cold: Cold

64. Summer or winter: Winter

63. Fall or Spring: Fall is my favorite time of year

62. Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate is my weakness

61. Night or Day: I am a total night owl

60. Oranges or Apples: Apples.

59. Curly or Straight hair: Mine is more wavy, although I wish it were straighter

:::Here's What I Think About:::
58. Abortion: Something I could never, ever do

57. Backstabbers: No room for them in my life.

:::Last time I:::
56.Had food? About 20 mins ago, I had some crackers

55. Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile: I saw Mindy a few weekends ago, I don't see her as much as I used to

54. Cried in front of someone: This morning, because I was hurting so bad

53. Who is the ditziest person you know: I know a few

52. Who makes you laugh the most: My mom and Phil

51. The last movie I saw: Little Miss Sunshine

50. What I don't understand is: Why people are so stupid these days

49. Something I always really miss when I leave home is: I am going to miss not having to cook dinner every night

48. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: Moving on Sept. 1st into our new apartment

47. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: Packing and moving, and then unpacking

46. Tomorrow: is Sunday, and hopefully I will feel better so that I can go out with Phil

45. Today: I feel yucky, and feel bad that Phil had to go out and run errands without me

44. Next Summer: Will be hot

43. Next Weekend: I am not sure what we are doing yet

42. People call me: Kimbo

41. The person who knows the most about me is: My mom, Mindy, and Phil

40. The most difficult thing to do is: having to cancel plans because I am not feeling good

39. I have gotten a speeding ticket: A few times, my last one was about 5 yrs ago

38.My zodiac sign is: Cancer

37. The first person i talked to today was: Phil

36. First time you had a crush: 4th grade

35. The one person who i can't hide things from: Mindy and Phil

34. Last time someone said something you were thinking: The other night, Phil and I have a habit of either saying the same thing at the same time, or saying something aloud that the other person was thinking

33. Right now I am talking to: No one, I am home alone for the time being

32. What is your dream job? I've always wanted to be a lawyer, I am fascinated by the criminal justice system

31. First real job: I worked at a movie theater

30. I have/will get a job: I am no longer able to work

29. I have these pets: 4 lovebirds: Baby, Lovie, Pooh, and Tweety

28. I wish: I felt better so I could be out with my Pooh :)

27. The worst sound in the world: Car crash

26. The person that makes me cry the most is? Phil, but only because he knows just the way to look at me and knows just the right things to say that shows just how much he loves me

25. Best sound in the world: Laughter

24. Person[s] that makes you happy: Phil, my family, and friends

23. Florida or Hawaii: Well, I have lived in Florida, and I didn't like it there, so I'll go with Hawaii

22. My favorite piece of clothing: My light cotton blue shirt

21. Last time I cried: This morning

20. My friends are: wonderful!
19. My computer is: new, I just got this laptop for Christmas

18. The school I go to is: I am no longer in school, I got my Associates Degree from University of Phoenix

17. Last person I got mad at: I got peeved at Phil the other day

16. The all-time best movie is: 16 Candles

15. The all-time best feeling in the world is: Being in love

14. I lose all respect for people who: lie and cheat.

13. The movie I cried at was: The Notebook

12. TV channels you watch: ABC, NBC, CBS, FOX, TLC, E!, MSNBC, History Channel, Weather Channel, HBO...just to name a few

11. Favorite web site: Myspace

10. I like/love: My family and Phil

9. The worst pain I was ever in was: when I shattered my elbow

8. My favorite word is: Whore or fuck (don't ask why, they are just good words lol)

7. My room is: Lived in

6. My favorite celebrity is: Johnny Depp

5. My weakness is: chocolate
4. What I like about the opposite sex is: Lips and Eyes

3. Who broke your heart: A lot of people over the years

2. One thing that makes you feel great is: snuggling with Phil

1. One person that you wish you could see right now: Phil, because I don't feel well and he always makes me feel better

Friday Afternoon Pondering...

So I am sitting here at my desk, and I look up, and there is a plastic Dove sitting on top of my desk, with its tail and behind facing me. Now, you ask, why is there a plastic Dove on my desk? Well, the answer is quite simple: My fiance, who loves to hunt, is excited that Dove hunting season starts on Sept. 1st, and like any good Dove hunter, you must have Dove decoys. So I have two of them living in my room now. But on this fine day, as I stare up at this one decoy, with its fine plastic tale hanging over the desk, I ask myself....

"Why does the plastic decoy have a poop hole?"

Finally!!!

We got an apartment!!!!

I haven't been blogging about it, because it seemed as though every time I blogged about an apartment that I liked, we didn't get it, so I have been keeping quiet (yes, I know its silly, but hey, I am a silly girl).

Last week my parents took me out to look at a few places while Phil was at work. The first place totally lied to me over the phone as to what they had available, just to get me into the place, and from there it was off to the second place.

When you first enter into the complex, the main thing I noticed is that it is surrounded by residential homes, and is very quiet. I liked that a lot, plus the complex almost looks like it belongs in the mountains, with lots of trees and such, very quaint. The staff was super friendly, which many of the places I called were not, and the apartment, although they had no handicap-accessible units available for rent now, will suit me and my chair just fine. It is a one bedroom apartment and although it is on the smaller side (720 sq. ft.), for the two of us for the next year, that will be fine. I filled out the applications, put down the holding deposits, and have been waiting since last week to find out if we got it or not.

Today, finally, the women called and let me know that the manager signed off on everything and we are set to move in as of the 1st! I am very excited, but also nervous. It has been a long time since I last had my own apartment when I lived in Florida, and it will be hard not seeing my mom everyday, since her and I are so close, but this is a great opportunity to finally get out on my own. And my Grandma lives maybe 5-10 mins down the road, so I feel better knowing that if I even run into an emergency, there is someone who could be there to help me.

Now just comes the part I hate....packing and unpacking....

My night in the ER

If there is one place in this world I hate going to, its the emergency room. You have no idea what people are in for, and what type of contagious disease or illness they might have, and you normally have to sit in the waiting room for hours before an overworked nurse and doctor will take a look at you. Needless to say, last night's trip to the emergency was not one I wanted to take.

It all started about a week and a half ago, when I was bite by a mosquito on the top of my left foot. For some reason, those pesky insects are attracted to me, whenever I go outside, I come back in with more bites then anyone else. A few days later, last Saturday, Phil and I went shopping, and that morning the bite was itching so much that I had to scratch it. As the day went out, my foot felt painful in the spot of the bite, underneath the strap of my flip-flop. I took my shoe off to see that the site was red and puffy, and was definitely infected. For the past week I have been keeping it as clean as I can, putting peroxide on it, bandaging it with antibacterial band-aids...the works. Yet, the thing kept getting worse. Yesterday at Walmart, Phil bought some Neosporin, and that just made it angry. So after dinner, with this thing hurting and throbbing and swollen, plus hot to the touch, I was told I was going to the ER.

Of course, I got crabby and bitchy, because even though I knew I had to go, I just didn't want to. But in the car we went and luckily, there is a new smaller hospital nearby that did not have a wait or very many people. And it turns out, I was not the only one in there with an infected bite, I guess it just must be that time of year.

The diagnosis: I have Cellulitis, which is an infection in the tissue underneath the skin, that if left untreated, could go to the bone, meaning a hospital stay, with IV antibiotic. Luckily, its not that bad, so I have to take oral antibiotics twice a day for ten days, keep a warm compress on it a few times a day, and they gave me a shot in my butt of a stronger antibiotic to get in my system and start working.

So I woke up this morning and to my surprise, it wasn't as painful as it was last night, and even though it is still red, it is not as bright red as it was last night, and it looks better, so I am very happy to see that. The dr. said if it doesn't get better then I need to go in and get IV meds, which I really don't want to be admitted into the hospital, so I am going to follow all of the dr.'s orders.

*Sigh*

Well, looks like we are still on the apartment search. Saturday we headed over to the complex that Mindy lives in, which we found has some strict qualification guidelines, the one upsetting me the most was that each of us, individually, has to make 3x the rent in income each month. Now, being on Disability, I make just enough to pay the rent, with absolutely nothing left over, yet Phil makes very good money, so we just combine our two incomes. This complex wouldn't have that though, so because I make so little each month, we're not able to get the apartment. I was upset about it, but after seeing the apartment, as much as there was a lot of room for me to get around (it was a handicap unit), there was a few things I didn't like, such as I would have to be constantly backing in and out of the kitchen to get to the stove and fridge and sink, and the bedroom was big, but narrow, and I wasn't able to get my chair into the closet.

So the search continues. It's just going to keep taking legwork to find the right place, and I am trying to be optimistic, but it just seems we keep hitting roadblocks. I guess I figured since things have come so easy to us so far, this would be easy as well. So I will be spending this week making calls and getting all the information on places, so this weekend we know which ones to look at.

Oh...people have been writing to me asking when we are headed off to Vegas. Well, looks like that trip isn't going to happen. His work seems to be wishy-washy on the whole thing, pushing the time they need to be there back, and he is under the impression it just isn't going to happen. So that's why we've decided to start looking for a place to rent, since before we weren't going to until after we got back from Vegas. As for getting married, we'll probably do something very simple here, and spend a weekend in Vegas as a honeymoon. But right now, our first priority is finding an apartment and getting settled in, and from there we'll figure out when we'll get married.

Sick Day

The monsoon's are in full swing here, meaning we've been getting rain and the dew point and humidity have been way up there. For me, this means my arthritis has not been a very happy camper, and today it has decided that I needed to stop and take a rest. I am really cold and my temp. is up, meaning I am having a flare up, so before it got too bad, I took a bunch of Advil, got in my warm jammies, and am now curled up in bed. I am hoping by resting today, I can avoid a full blown flare up, where I can't move at all, and get past this and start feeling better by this weekend, since we have a lot of things to do, including looking and hopefully leasing that new apartment.

I feel like such a bum though. I have laundry to do that I couldn't get done, except for a tiny load so Phil had some clean pants to wear to work tomorrow. But I can't even get them out of the washer to dry them, he will have to do it when he gets home. He has never seen me have a flare up like this, so I guess today he is going to see first hand just what I go through. I know he will help me though, he's a good guy and he understands I have trouble like this which is out of my control. I just hate feeling this way, and wish I had something stronger I could take to get me past this and back to feeling better again. I suppose there is also another part of me that worries that this all might be too much for him, that he'll start thinking he doesn't want to deal with loading my chair in and out of the car every time we go out, and deal with me having days like this, and one day tell me he just can't do it. But he has assured me time and time again that will never happens, he knows this is just part of being with me, and he is fine with it. I guess its just my own insecurities, after being in relationships in the past where I have been told my arthritis is a burden. No matter how much things are different this time, I still have those thoughts in my head, which I guess is normal.

Well, I think I am going to sit back here on my pillows and watch a little TV while I try to relax. Phil will be home very soon, and I know he will make me feel better.

Updates

So the apartment hunt continues, after the fiasco of the place we went to last week, bringing out a huge sheet of hidden fees. I had called around places, trying to find a place that is affordable, has a handicap accessible apartment, and is in a nice neighborhood. Well, Mindy lives in a nice complex that is in the same area of the apartment complex I used to live in before we moved to Queen Creek. She went down to her leasing office and they have a 900 sq. ft one bedroom handicap accessible apartment, ready to rent now. I saw the flood plan and prices, and it is what we are looking for, so she let the leasing women know we will be in Saturday to look and possibly lease if we like it. So that would be nice, I love the neighborhood, close to the freeway for Phil to get to work, and good shopping, including a Barnes and Noble which I am so happy with, and its in Gilbert, which is a nice city. And it will be nice to be close to Mindy, if I need anything she can come over and help me, and it will be nice to see each other more often, and also I can see her little girl Kiarra, which I haven't seen since December, and she has gotten so big.

Besides that, everything has been going well. The monsoon is in full swing here and every night we have been getting dust storms and rain and thunderstorms, which is nice, but my arthritis hasn't been too happy with it. And Phil got a raise at work yesterday, which is going to help a lot, I am so proud of him. He really does work very hard, and his job is very demanding, working on these job sites in the blazing Arizona summer heat, poor thing comes home everyday covered in sweat. I hope he knows just how much I appreciate all the hard work he does to support us.

So, that's about all the news I have going on right now. I'll keep you posted on apartment news this weekend.