Time to lay low for awhile....

I've done a lot of thinking tonight and I decided that I need to just lay low when it comes to the whole dating thing. I sort of jumped into it again, without really feeling it. I'm not sure, I suppose because I miss companionship, I miss having someone to go do things with, I miss the company of a man.

The problem is number one, I've come across nothing but guys with weirdo sexual fetishes or just want to hook up for sex, or who just generally give me a bad feeling. I just don't have the time or the patience to deal with it.

My second problem is that my interest is elsewhere, or I should say, on someone else. And frankly, I just don't want to go out with anyone right now. I have no idea if anything would ever happen again with this person, but right now, this person is on my mind a lot. And I'm pretty sure he knows I am still interested, and I sort of have the feeling he's still interested too. But sometimes its just not the right time, for whatever reasons, which I don't need to discuss here.

So I've taken my ad off these sites, and I am going to do something I haven't done in awhile, which is focus on myself and what makes me happy. There's so much I want to do, places I want to go, I need to get myself out of the house more, spend time with friends. Friday night I had so much fun with Mindy, I felt good and I was in a state of happy that I haven't been in for a long time, and it felt good. I need to get back to that.

When its meant for me to meet the right person, then it will happen. But right now, I feel good about this decision, really good. I deserve love and happiness and to be with someone who will treat me with kindness and respect. And I will find that, eventually. Right now though, I'm happy with it just being me.