Here Comes The Kimbo

So remember all those times, in my past blogs, were I said I was never going to find someone, I was never going to get married, or have a family, and I had just resigned myself to being alone for the rest of my life.

Well, I take it all back....

Sunday night, I was talking to Phil on yahoo, as usual, when he popped the question. Yes, that question, "Kim, will you marry me?" And he was completely serious. We had talked about marriage before, and at first, I told him we should probably wait, mainly out of my own fear of being rejected so many times, that I had some of my guard up left, trying to protect myself. But even then, I wanted to say yes. When he asked on Sunday, there was no hesitation, no doubts, no thinking what if it doesn't work out. The first thing that came out was "Yes".

So, its official, we are engaged! And another surprise, as much as he tried to keep it a secret yesterday (although his sly grin kept giving it away), was that he picked out a ring for me, all on his own, and it should be here next week. He says then he'll do a proper proposal, down on one knee, of course I won't know when or where. But he told me the day he gets the ring, he needs to see me. I can't wait.

Now, before you ask when the wedding is, we're going to wait for about a year. That gives us time to start easing into living together, keep learning more about each other, and make sure everything is in place so that when we do get married, we are ready to start our lives together.

Ring or not, I love that man to pieces. And trust me, I've heard all the comments from "Congratulations" to "You've only known each other for 2 weeks!". But that doesn't matter. Its what's in our hearts, and how we feel about each other that matters. He's proved over and over again that he is in this for the long haul, that with me is where he wants to be. Each time we spend the day together, I learn more and more about him, and see new sides of him, that make me fall in love with him all over again. Simple things like the way he looks into my eyes, or the way he sings to me when we're listening to the radio in the car, or when we're sitting in front of our Starbucks hangout, to the way he cares so much about making sure I am taken care. Its those things that I have always wanted in a man, and he possess all those qualities, and then some. It is as though God has finally answered the prayer I have been praying the most, to bring into my life the right man for me, who will accept me and love me for who I am as a person. I am not sure what I did to deserve him, but now that I have him, my life has been enhanced in such a way, that I can't even fully explain. He makes my world a brighter place, and all the bad I have gone through, relationship-wise, has suddenly turned into a distant memory. I just hope that I can always make him as happy as he makes me.