I feel...off....

I woke up yesterday to the room spinning. That is just the most awful feeling in the world, being so dizzy you can't even sit up. I haven't had that in a long time. I was able in the afternoon to function and sit up, but I still had that weird lightheaded, floating feeling.

I woke this morning a little better, but still lightheaded throughout the day. I also felt extremely tired, my eyes felt heavy, like I could have just fallen asleep at anytime. I felt hungry and sick, but when I ate I still felt sick.

I am doing better tonight, my head doesn't hurt, and I am feeling more level-headed. I think some of it might be from stress and from lack of sleep. I've had a lot on my mind lately, and I've just got to let it go. I'm an over thinker by nature, and its just, unimportant. It's things I can't do anything about, I can't change, and its silly for me to even be bothered by it. But I always try to make things right, I always try to fix things. But sometimes what I want, and what actually happens, is different, and that's life. Worrying about it isn't going to do a damn thing. And life is too short.

Sleep has been a funny thing for me lately too. I've been so tired, yet I can't sleep. When I do get to sleep, I am having the most strangest dreams ever! Dreams so deep and involved that I wake up and wonder where the hell it came from! Is it possible to be exhausted from a dream? Cause lately I wake up from my dreams more exhausted then I was before I went to bed!

Other then that...things have been pretty good. I've been back and forth on the dating thing, whether I should keep an ad up I have one eHarmony, because I have gotten some requests for communication. So I decided I'll keep just that ad up, and see what pans out. I'm not taking an active role on there, if someone writes to me, then I will respond if it is someone I would be interested in. I figure, it can't hurt. I've got no other prospects right now.

I also had a great idea come to me for a book, it just hit me the other day and this entire scenario just started playing out in my head, so I quickly grabbed the laptop and started writing out character bios and back stories and started doing a lot of brain-storming. Now, I have always had trouble when it comes to writing an actual book, I do really well with poetry, and short stories. But I really feel like I could do this, and I think the story, if I can convey it, will be intriguing, mysterious, and suspenseful. This is something I have always wanted to do, write a book. Its going to take awhile, of course, but I've got the time right now to do a lot of writing, and I've got an excellent foundation to start on. And I know in my head exactly how I want the story to start, how I want it to end, and what to happen in the middle.

I'm also getting into my photography again. For awhile I was really into going around and taking pictures, whether it be of nature, kids playing, people, anything. I love pictures, to be able to capture a memory like that, to show people your view of life, from your perspective. I've always wanted to put together a collection of my photos. I am thinking of taking a photography class, to perfect my skills. This is just my time, to do things that I love, get back to hobbies that I put aside for one reason or another. I'd even love to get back into my music again.

So, this is turning out to be a good time in my life....