Maybe this time's a charm...

So update: I never did go out with D, and I am no longer talking to him. He was just way to aggressive and kept wanting me to come out to his house early in the morning, which is about 2 hours away, not counting rush hour traffic, and I knew he only had one intention, even though he said otherwise. My intuition just started kicking in that this wasn't right.

Now, I was ready to give up altogether. In fact, all the way to my grandma's house and back Wednesday, I bitched my mom that I was never going to find the right guy and that I should just give up. She said I need to just ask for what I want, and it will be given to me. But I just like what's the point.

When I came home that night, I went onto the site where I have an ad still up, and after sitting there looking at it for a bit, I went to delete it. Right at that time, I got an email from a guy. He said he liked my profile and wanted to know if I would be interested in talking. I looked at his profile and although there wasn't much information, and normally in that case I don't respond, but this time I decided to.

We started IMing each other on yahoo. His name is Phillip, he's 28 and lives in Mesa, and is a Lead Carpenter for a construction company. He was married for two years, divorced for two years, and has no children, and lives alone.

Our conversation just felt natural and relaxed from the very start. I know it might sound weird, but we just clicked. We talked for hours, about everything. What impressed me the most, is that he never once brought up anything sexual, and three days later, he still hasn't. That is so refreshing. The next day, he called me, and we just clicked even more. Great personality, great sense of humor.

What is so crazy, is that everything that I am looking for in a partner, he has the qualities, and more. When he talks about what he's been through relationship-wise, and the hurt and disappointment, its like he's reading a page from my own life. He is looking forward to being in a relationship, and eventually marriage and family, and we both want the same things in that regard. So far, everything seems great. My intuition isn't giving me any bad feelings, in fact its nothing but good. And we're definitely taking this one step at a time. But he says he feels a connection with me, that he has never felt before. And I have to say I feel the same.

Of course, you all know how jaded and cynical I can get when it comes to matters of the heart, and how guarded I keep myself. So I am on the lookout for red flags and warning signs, and that feeling in my gut that something is going to go wrong. So far, though, so good. Plus, I don't want to live my life always waiting for the bad to happen, so it makes me miss out on the good.

So tomorrow is our first date. His mom has to work tomorrow so he saw her tonight, and my mom said since she'll be sleeping all day (due to working nights), she would much rather me go out and meet Phillip, because she can't wait to see if this works out. So, we decided to spend the Sunday together and do something out of the ordinary, which is to drive up to Prescott (which is two hours north of us) and have a picnic lunch and check out the big arts and crafts festival they have going on there tomorrow. It gets us out of the heat (its been in the 100's here the past few days), and away from all the Mother's Day crowds at restaurants and movies. Plus, it gives us a chance to do something fun while having a lot of time to talk and get to know each other. So since I am driving (I need the van for my chair), I am going to pick him up at 10:30, then we're going to stop by the grocery store and pick up some lunch stuff to put in his cooler, and hit the road. I'm not sure when we'll be back, but I have a feeling its going to be a really fun day. And he told me to bring my camera so we can take pictures, which you know me, I love taking pictures, so I will have those to share with you tomorrow!

Wish me luck! Let's hope this guy turns out to be everything he says he is, and not another weirdo to add to my list!