So this is what love feels like

Phil and I went out yesterday. We hadn't seen each other since Sunday, but we talk everyday. We first had to make a stop to get a chair lift put on my van. For those who have gone out with me, you know I have a van ramp that is a total pain in the ass to use, so I finally said enough is enough and bought a lift for the back, which makes life so much easier for the people who have to help me. After the guy installed it, he was back there showing Phil how to use it. I was sitting in the car, looking back there, and watching him learn and ask questions, and genuinely wanting to know to do it right. There isn't a lot of men out there these days who would take the time for such things, and really care. It showed to me that he really is in this for the long haul. He was all excited that he learned how to use it and when I asked him why, he said its something that he's going to need to do for me for and he wants to make sure he can help me anyway he can.

After that appointment we went over to the mall, since the weather is so unbearable during the day, and ate and shopped around for a few hours. I noticed that both he and I were acting more like ourselves, me being totally silly and goofy, and he is very much the same. As much as Sunday was a perfect day, yesterday it was like we were just like a couple whose known each other for years. After the mall we went over and got some ice cream and he told me all about his job, and what he plans on doing in the future to move up in his career. We really just connect on every level.

We even talked a lot about how we feel, about each other, and this relationship. I know a lot of people think we're crazy for feeling the way we do about each other, and I know a lot of people don't want to see me get hurt, and I appreciate that. But with Phil, it just clicks, in a way that I've never felt with anyone else. There are no red flags or warning signs, no bad gut feelings. I've had infatuation before, and this is not it. He said last night, that he can't explain it, he just knows that with me, it is where he is supposed to be. And I feel the same way. We've both been through the same heartache, and heartbreak. We've met weirdos and we'd given up hope that we'd even find love. And its funny how at the same time we decided to just give up, we found each other. They say that there is a right person for everyone, seems like it was finally our time. As much as we'd have liked to meet sooner, we realize that this is the perfect time, because we've been through hell and back and we can appreciate what we have. There is no need to go out and see if anything better comes along. It is totally new to both us of, but its great. When I am with him, I just feel complete. He's what I have been looking for. When we're together, its like there is no one else around but just the two of us.

It also came to my attention today from a friend that I haven't talked a lot about him, and what he does, so I will give you some background info. He is 28, soon to be 29 in August. He is a lead carpenter and works for a construction company. He lives alone, has his own apartment, but when his lease is up he plans on getting a home of his own. He was married for two years, been divorced for the past two years, and has no kids. We met on a site called singlesnet, where I've been fortunate enough to meet a few great people from. He's mature, very responsible, funny, compassionate, sweet, and just everything I've been looking for.

Speaking of which, I need to get ready, we're going out tonight, hopefully to a movie. But I really don't care what we do, as long as I get to spend time with him.