Why do I bother...

Sometimes I'm just not sure why I try. Sometimes I feel like what I am looking for is just some fleeting dream, a figment of my imagination. Sometimes I feel like what I am looking for, just doesn't exist.

But, I am keeping my head up. No longer will I chose to be cynical. Instead, I look in the mirror and tell the person looking back at me that you deserve better then what you've been given. You deserve what your looking for, and you won't settle for less. I have a heart full of love, and its a damn shame no one can see that, or appreciate it. All I seem to be good for to these people is a roll in the hay. I refuse to degrade myself to that.

There's a change going on here, in my outlook, in my disposition. And air of confidence, perhaps. Maybe even more an air of, "I just don't give a fuck about (insert issue here)". An air of "I refuse to settle, I refuse to let you treat me like I am not good enough. I refuse to come second best".

I just, no longer have the patience.